My Meez

Wicked Weekend

may all your fears
be satiated

and all you pleasures
meet

watch out for all your doing
leaving no room
for regret

before the end is written
and you sleeping soul
is wet

see nighttime full of
mocking mouths

gaping eyes which
cannot see

and the
cavern full of nothing

under which the mauling
feed

kiss this, fuck
regret is nothing

save your silent
revelries

enter now
into this morning

the one you lost...
is now at peace

happy Halloween
everybody

Touch

this is your center
i am your mind

leave behind
what you need

and touch with
pale fingers

where i think you
should be

ah the air
escapes your life

and wet and warm
in the beginning

let it stay in you
until the fondness
fades

until it fades
i'll stay

run backwards
over deadleaves

frozen cheeks
will mar the makeup

dare to touch
the numbness

and we will stay
until your color fades

until it fades
i'll stay

"No" Place

in a land made of mirror
i tread in soft slippers

over the invisible infinite surface

cover my mouth to
hide my shame

over and over
and over again

i don't complain
don't make a sound

the silvery silence is
defining

and when i end
i forget
to begin

entranced by my walking
my self is gone

looking for you
once frozen sun

in the horizon i see my face
illuminated solitude and grace

"someday" i sit and sigh
reflecting in space

happy 4th yall

If anything should happen in the big NY

if the world disappears, or just i do

I would like everyone to know

Happy independence day

Do it for you

accept the good with bad

swallow your ego

and allow yourself the freedom

entitled to a living being

and shout to the heavens

i am here and i will be happy

because i breathe,

because i see

i am and i experience

I love and i am life

don't react

allow and understand you
and every other being alive

lives and dies

so switch off the autopilot

jump headfirst into your biggest fears

because after that what's left

but to be the traveler
the navagator

the one who truely lived
and died

but still endures

to all of you

taking day by day

i love you

i will always love you

i respect you and i miss you

and most of all

now

right now

I am here with you
enjoying you

for who you really are
a living being

and thats enough for me

Humanity

in this world
of inconsistancy

i dance
like the small
flower

in a wake
of a mighty wind

wavering
secretly
i dream of a race
that knows
more of self
then i ever could

can't you see
in that light
through slanted eyes
that ancient need

only filled by your
self satisfaction

i was right

so long ago

standing alone

reflecting on a people

only gratified by pain

silence followed love
down the twisted halls

locker lined lessons
in social disfucntion

oh well

the illusions run
away with me again

i am possesed by possesions

wanted by lovers
and loved by none

i tread down
the shadowy tracks
of soul seclusion

playing a game
with myself
i walk through the
rain again

suffering incomparable
to starvation

i am tryly centered in
the wrong direction

counter-weighed by
hate

i rock above the waves
i see the sea of hands

there i confide
in unfamiliar eyes

'cause icons fall
but never die...

OK

moving forward
never ceasing
to amaze

minds a haze
my pillz
all.........
gone

forests forgotten
walking through
burnt remains

i am the one
captain of absence
passing by
the sun

after all
the dust has
settled on
the world

i have begun
to derail time

take it in
long lines
smiling at
the reflection

bleeding down on me
close my eyes to
see the future
erased

escaped
a life

who can say
it's ok

The World

here we are
at the beginning
and the end

now together
once apart
i self destruct
to find the center

cutting
red wine
lines across time

vertically i
consider
all i have remembered

and i travel down through time
progressing backwards

I make a space
a small black box

my knees tight
huddled up inside

feeling in
suspension

i can't escape this tension
so i sleep

until you come

all existence
dripping down
the arched
back of my skull

enough of tearing
love through rivers
shining faces

in the bathroom light
floor of the shower

weeping for the world

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your hand

i stare
into the opened eyes
of blissfulness

escaping past
i look into lostless
uncertain

but alive

i find you also
breathing
sleeping

you animal man
won't pretend
to know you...

promise

to appreciate
to look forward to
to celebrate

run my nighttime lips
over your cool fingers

kiss the thin golden promise
and smell the sweet
cigarettes
still clinging to
your resting hand

love is this
smiling silence

keeping

im afraid

this decending spirit
trapped in the endless cycle

refuses to accept a fate unwanted

rather then spoil the party

finding earthly monotony
everywhere it should not be

whose to say whats happy

wishing everyone the best
she slips on a starlet dress
and asends the velvet steps
forever

sending all her best to
all those souls

entertaining mortals
momentary bliss

to impatient to even hide
followings another pointless high
it will all spill out with time

then she'll know she loved a lie

passing mind

why am I
not enough to satisfy

if i should struggle
to understand
you as i

then where do i defy?

falling short
of love

i try to know
but knowing only makes
the problem grow

falling further from
those holy dreams

so why
do i do this
to my mind...

Sweet

drip
drop
slowly
sliding down
like fingers

rich darkness
moving

softly into
silky porcelin

not a sound
save the haulted
breath
of
exhalation

in a kiss
lips movement
seeming motionless

theres nothing like
sweet
java bliss...

No sleep

Waking up early
i force the potent
black liquid
down my throat

Tired dragged
down my body
and out my
pink painted toes

I pace
from the crib
to the kitchen

from the sink
i see the frozen
world cased in cream

icy rainbow teardrops
hang from every cornice
and corner
softly weeping in the
early morning sunshine

god i miss sleeping

Here it is

this is me
this connection to
the world
a link
a word
tatooed in
prose upon my forehead

i found you here
my inspiring
downer

I had or have
a dream
that mimics a world
of shadows

I am the mind
behind the curtain

controlling an uncontrollable

showered with your
absent affection

I guess this lonely
infinite connection
lets me know your
alive

but why do i miss
dreaming?

i guess the I am
fooled myself

did i ever want at all
everywhere i go

i feel the fall
of needing
manifest in expectation

all your desires
are empty

if they love you
are you loved

if you want them
will you feel satisfaction

if you go there
will it be there

"i deserve" is meaningless
shit

just stop thinking and
live

...

to escape all thought
of implied suspition
i have to say
i created this day
every moment
i created this life
but still i questioned
where I went wrong
who is to blame
for this suspended state
of disbelief
unrequested
unrequited
the hardest one to forgive
is me
i feel the god grow within me
daily
and i give my life

Quiet Little Poor Boy

I see a sad little boy
sitting alone in the light of a street lamp

pen scratches paper
as the crickets of the lakeside
croon their nightime song
all night long

Quiet little poor boy
scratching out poetry
what are you writting
what are you dreaming

Quiet little poor boy
what will your future be?

I see a young man
picking cotton in the feilds with his mama
since he was 3 years old
oooh,
dragging his sack around
dragging his childhood down

Quiet little poor boy
could you see what was to come
could you see Germany
could you see Vietnam
oooh,
Quiet little poor boy
had to be a man too soon

Now your a daddy
got that son you always wanted
but on the way you got 4 girls
ooooh,
daddy's little junkyard girl
says she off to see the world
says soon she'll be leaving
you know that soon she'll be gone

ohhhhh,
Quiet little poor boy
what are you gonna do
when your baby's leaving you

Quiet little poor boy
scratching out poetry
what are you writing
What are you dreaming



I wrote this song for my father years ago and it came to mind. I can hear the piano music ringing up from my memory. When i remember more I'll patch it up. I love you old man. ^_^

10 Best and 10 Worst

10 Best Things About Being a Nudist

10. You are always comfortable, no clothes to pinch or itch, to tight or too loose, complete freedom of movement

9. Drinks and meals are always bought for you

8. The sun is always warmer

7. The rain is always sweeter

6. You have nothing to hide, or at least no where to hide it. People trust someone with no pockets

5. Your always a hit a parties

4. You never fail to shock visitors at the door

3. They never forget your name, or your …um… face

2. You never have to worry about what to wear

1. Everybody loves the naked person; it takes strength, bravery, vulnerability and a lot of grooming



10 Worst Things About Being a Nudist

10. It gets cold sometimes

9. You’re usually the only one naked

8. Leather furniture can get sticky

7. Going to the mall gets complicated

6. Pets with claws and cold noses

5. Sometimes insecure people get mad until they understand that’s just the weird way you are

4. You leave yourself open to what people really think of appearances

3. People fall in love easily with an open, honest, naked person

2. You can get arrested for going outside

1. Naked people jobs are limited

Waiting for January

this celebrated sense of cerebral conformity
the scent seems to follow you.

tense always
where do we go

further from the solitary
feeling of self

i understand
what you don't want me to

i am to blame for the
state of this stasis

barely alive
thank god in this absence

we all want for a greater purpose
we know is just waiting

in the mailbox
at the bank

when we leave or comeback
just beyond tomorrow

the sun hides behind
the mountains

just over the horizon
but you don't know how
to climb

so again you struggle
with ever opening the door

and even more
can't decide if you even

make it there
wouldn't it just be night
by then

missed it again
the sun on your face

the wet grass
on your knees

a smile on your
flawless mind

felt it all come down
when you say that
life is a mistake
your right

i was wrong
i surrender to your justice

don't forget to be emotional
how else can they tell
your serious

about what you know
is defined right

don't forget your "right"
overrides everyone else's
experience

i long for the empty bliss
that waits on the other
side of abandon

i can let go of everything

but you

Pressure to please

what is it
you think i
don't understand

how bout you stand here
for a minute

watch your face
as you say
one thing
and say another

confusing your
universe

hey smile
and lie

i can take it

one more round for the inebriated
shell of you

i swallow the salty soul
and take it all down
with me
to a kingdom
full of restful
sleep

no one ever spends a night
alone in this everlasting
state
of celebrated empty

love this

i can dig it

just smile and lie
i know its you again

wide eyed wonder
infinity shows me
your so sad

predictable

tell me something
how far does it go?

A million times i've seen the shore
a memory trapped within a dream

i take this photograph
and scribe behind
a life that isn't mine
an epitaph

a drawing without lines
a mind of nights
so sacrosanct
a lie is your
limited translated truth

honestly a word
a world

unreal and so
intruth

i follow a scene
repeated through
a neverending
taste of what a
sunset could truly
be