Here it is

this is me
this connection to
the world
a link
a word
tatooed in
prose upon my forehead

i found you here
my inspiring
downer

I had or have
a dream
that mimics a world
of shadows

I am the mind
behind the curtain

controlling an uncontrollable

showered with your
absent affection

I guess this lonely
infinite connection
lets me know your
alive

but why do i miss
dreaming?

i guess the I am
fooled myself

did i ever want at all
everywhere i go

i feel the fall
of needing
manifest in expectation

all your desires
are empty

if they love you
are you loved

if you want them
will you feel satisfaction

if you go there
will it be there

"i deserve" is meaningless
shit

just stop thinking and
live